The People Living in My House Thinks that I'm not part of the family. That without me, everything would be okay. That my mom doesn't care whether I move out or not. That I'm such a bitch. That I ask for too many things. That Elan would ship me off to Korea if he could. That everything that I do turns to shit because all the good things don't matter. That I'm just a maid in this prison. Getting paid to clean. That I'm an orphan and nobody likes me. That going out once a month is bad. That going to church is bad. That if I turn on one light, someone pours water on me. That everything in life sucks at this moment. Nobody is in my shoes. And it sucks to be me. I have no social life. I go to school, don't hangout afterschool, come home, and stay online til my mom gets home, and sleep. Sometimes I don't even eat and she doesn't care. Nobody ever cares. And it really hurts to know that. But now that I do know that, in 2 years, I won't be here anymore. I honestly don't know what to do. Nobody truly loves me. And understnads me. I can't talkback even when my mom is wrong. I can't do anything but it's wrong. I can't ever do anything because I'm worthless. I think that I was a mistake. I think that nobody keeps promises anymore. That even highschool didn't change anything. And nothing will. Because I will always be unwanted. And because I want to die.
Btw, I can never die. Life is too good to throw away just because of some bitch. Well, bitch-es. My life sucks. A Lot. This is basically what I've been bottling up for so long. Typing this doesn't help but I stopped crying. I hope my mom reads and kills me. Cause that would be the only good thing in my life.
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Jessica, I care about you. No matter how little we know of each other.
Always hang in there because when all this ends it'll get better. That's the one thing you can hold on to, that things will eventually get better.
jessica! Things will get better, I promise, promise promise. And don't ever say no one cares for you, because there always will be! I know what you mean though, my stepmom cant stop bitching at me, even for the tiniest of things. I clean the whole house, no money, im grounded. but life will get better.
SOMEBODY NEEDS TO COME OVER AND HAVE A HORNY BEDTIME AGAIN !
babe feel so much better
awwwwh you guys are the reason im still here.
jesssica! invite sooon biznatchh
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