I Want This Forever.

I'm fine. I'm not dead. I'm here and always will be. My little emo moments get out of hand sometimes. Well I'm fine now. An noboy can ring me down. I noticed that koreans aren't that good for me anymore. Like even friend wise. I guess I'm really weird. Gosh, hahahah. Well school's getting better and better. No picture but yehh. It's fun stuff. I love the seniors. They think I'm small. (Ernie.) Hahahah but can't mess with him cus he's a varisty starter! Heehee, and my classes are adjustable. Friends? Hahahah like all the guys cus the girls are lame. Minus leah. hahaha leahh jus being a mexican. Haahha and i love the mexican icecream guy hhaha andd i love my locker. and that locker boy too. and Lolo, and Massam, and Levi, and Perfect Guy. Whoo! and Kei**. He needs a code name but w/e. He's always lookin' HOT. Hahahahah I love my school. Switch to Venice. It's bomb. Unless you're a loner. Heehee, Music is my medicine for depression. Oh and shout out to LUKE KIM! thanks for the mix cd's. It was amazing. I love youu :) yehh that's how i am. BTW, lets hangout(dear reader). Xoxo Jessica

PLAYLIST;
-Fingerprints-Katyperry
-Say What You Need To Say-Johnmayer
-The Middle-Jimmy Eat World
-Dickhead-Katenash
-See you again-Miley Cyrus. (who doesnt like this song? :])
-Music Sounds better with you-daftpunk
-Down-jaysean

well yeah. gotta love it

Story of my Life

The People Living in My House Thinks that I'm not part of the family. That without me, everything would be okay. That my mom doesn't care whether I move out or not. That I'm such a bitch. That I ask for too many things. That Elan would ship me off to Korea if he could. That everything that I do turns to shit because all the good things don't matter. That I'm just a maid in this prison. Getting paid to clean. That I'm an orphan and nobody likes me. That going out once a month is bad. That going to church is bad. That if I turn on one light, someone pours water on me. That everything in life sucks at this moment. Nobody is in my shoes. And it sucks to be me. I have no social life. I go to school, don't hangout afterschool, come home, and stay online til my mom gets home, and sleep. Sometimes I don't even eat and she doesn't care. Nobody ever cares. And it really hurts to know that. But now that I do know that, in 2 years, I won't be here anymore. I honestly don't know what to do. Nobody truly loves me. And understnads me. I can't talkback even when my mom is wrong. I can't do anything but it's wrong. I can't ever do anything because I'm worthless. I think that I was a mistake. I think that nobody keeps promises anymore. That even highschool didn't change anything. And nothing will. Because I will always be unwanted. And because I want to die.

Btw, I can never die. Life is too good to throw away just because of some bitch. Well, bitch-es. My life sucks. A Lot. This is basically what I've been bottling up for so long. Typing this doesn't help but I stopped crying. I hope my mom reads and kills me. Cause that would be the only good thing in my life.

The best things in life are free.

THANK YOU JESSICA.

NickAndSarah, IMY♥

So the past week, i was at susan's house for 4days :) and it was so much fun. Friday was QT and then Saturday-새벽기도 then Sunday-Church. So yeahh that was all fun. And on Thursdayy, so much laughing. YoungkiLee,EdwardKim, and MatthewKim(?) came to Susan's and it was so much fun. I missed Youngki soooo much and i finally saw him♥ and yeahh it was effing amazing. So yeah basically I'm going to miss those Taco Stands, CSI Miami, Raping Happy(hahaha), and thinking Amber is the coolest moments.♥ Hahahaa, I'm going to miss you guys in hs im happy we hungout before school started. Heehee, well yeahhhh Friday was cool, yknow Albert making kissing faces at Susan and whatnot. Saturday wass goood fuun. Went to Goodwill with Susan got a really cute red striped tanktop and a Cherokee buttondown. All for $9! That's wasssup. And then on Sunday, woke up early and went to JetRag with Jae Un'e and got three things. (btw she bougt it for me! :)) I got a huge adidas shirt for sleeping, and then a striped tee, and a courdory jacket. Guess how much it was... $3! Yupp a dollar a piece. The $1 sale mann! I'm going again next week :) Then went to church then bused to Beverly Center, hungout with my sista and Ninacutie. That was lots of fun. Yeahh so I took $0 but at the end, I ended with a cropped tee from Planet Funk, AmericanEagle Tank, 4Earrings, and h&m canvas shoes. Yeahhh I didnt steal. But my sister didnt want me to eyeshop sooo she bought those for me. Well the cropped tee from Planet Funk was from Nina, my extremely late birthday present. :] I love youu, well yyeahhhh. I'm really happy and I think I'm oging shopping with my madre today too! Man I love this week. Everyone's being nice to me. Well yeahh I still need mo shoes and a bag for school. Yeahh Highschool starts in 2days, im not done with my hw. FML but imma work hard today. :) so yeahhh OH and im going to VENICEHIGH. stop asking pwease. and yeh, OMG andddd Janepark is a cutie.♥ There. Done.

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxx Jessica♥