I'm coming back to the Heart of Worship.

Well the title of this blog is stuck in ma head. seriously, can't stop singing it. Ummm, school is school. I've sleptover susan's for 4days. Not a record though. 6days is the record. But i honestly, i hate going to her house. Leavingg is tough mann. Sometimes i stop to think if i miss my mom but no i dont. IDK ummm i have no love life to start with. Unless it's Peter....nnnaaaatttt. Umm I really miss Sarah Snigh and I doubt she reads my blog anymore but still. And i hope your not friends with Hannah Provisor... idk she's weird. but whatever. I hope we hangout soon cus we need to tal alll nighttt gurlfrann. I miss you Nick Hahn. and we need to talk all night too gurlfrann. JK boyfrann. but it feels awkward to call you that cus edward kim is the og boyfrang. wellll anyywayssss, i miss jiin-my kit bowl of amazingness. annniekim-my cute nigg that can booooootyshake. and janepark-although we only saw each other for a while, I miss you. OH and jessicakim my nigger. yeahhh that's about it. oooh and i love christine shim's blog. they are fantastic. reallly. (= im getting more and more curious about everything my head hurts. I am being a faithful christian these days. listening to sermons, reflecting it on my life, telling people with hard troubles to have faith, and to walk with God everyday.

hahahahah today i wrote 2 essays in 2 hours. IM AMAZING.

xoxo GossipGirl. nnnaaattt Jessica Choi

I Want This Forever.

I'm fine. I'm not dead. I'm here and always will be. My little emo moments get out of hand sometimes. Well I'm fine now. An noboy can ring me down. I noticed that koreans aren't that good for me anymore. Like even friend wise. I guess I'm really weird. Gosh, hahahah. Well school's getting better and better. No picture but yehh. It's fun stuff. I love the seniors. They think I'm small. (Ernie.) Hahahah but can't mess with him cus he's a varisty starter! Heehee, and my classes are adjustable. Friends? Hahahah like all the guys cus the girls are lame. Minus leah. hahaha leahh jus being a mexican. Haahha and i love the mexican icecream guy hhaha andd i love my locker. and that locker boy too. and Lolo, and Massam, and Levi, and Perfect Guy. Whoo! and Kei**. He needs a code name but w/e. He's always lookin' HOT. Hahahahah I love my school. Switch to Venice. It's bomb. Unless you're a loner. Heehee, Music is my medicine for depression. Oh and shout out to LUKE KIM! thanks for the mix cd's. It was amazing. I love youu :) yehh that's how i am. BTW, lets hangout(dear reader). Xoxo Jessica

PLAYLIST;
-Fingerprints-Katyperry
-Say What You Need To Say-Johnmayer
-The Middle-Jimmy Eat World
-Dickhead-Katenash
-See you again-Miley Cyrus. (who doesnt like this song? :])
-Music Sounds better with you-daftpunk
-Down-jaysean

well yeah. gotta love it

Story of my Life

The People Living in My House Thinks that I'm not part of the family. That without me, everything would be okay. That my mom doesn't care whether I move out or not. That I'm such a bitch. That I ask for too many things. That Elan would ship me off to Korea if he could. That everything that I do turns to shit because all the good things don't matter. That I'm just a maid in this prison. Getting paid to clean. That I'm an orphan and nobody likes me. That going out once a month is bad. That going to church is bad. That if I turn on one light, someone pours water on me. That everything in life sucks at this moment. Nobody is in my shoes. And it sucks to be me. I have no social life. I go to school, don't hangout afterschool, come home, and stay online til my mom gets home, and sleep. Sometimes I don't even eat and she doesn't care. Nobody ever cares. And it really hurts to know that. But now that I do know that, in 2 years, I won't be here anymore. I honestly don't know what to do. Nobody truly loves me. And understnads me. I can't talkback even when my mom is wrong. I can't do anything but it's wrong. I can't ever do anything because I'm worthless. I think that I was a mistake. I think that nobody keeps promises anymore. That even highschool didn't change anything. And nothing will. Because I will always be unwanted. And because I want to die.

Btw, I can never die. Life is too good to throw away just because of some bitch. Well, bitch-es. My life sucks. A Lot. This is basically what I've been bottling up for so long. Typing this doesn't help but I stopped crying. I hope my mom reads and kills me. Cause that would be the only good thing in my life.

The best things in life are free.

THANK YOU JESSICA.

NickAndSarah, IMY♥

So the past week, i was at susan's house for 4days :) and it was so much fun. Friday was QT and then Saturday-새벽기도 then Sunday-Church. So yeahh that was all fun. And on Thursdayy, so much laughing. YoungkiLee,EdwardKim, and MatthewKim(?) came to Susan's and it was so much fun. I missed Youngki soooo much and i finally saw him♥ and yeahh it was effing amazing. So yeah basically I'm going to miss those Taco Stands, CSI Miami, Raping Happy(hahaha), and thinking Amber is the coolest moments.♥ Hahahaa, I'm going to miss you guys in hs im happy we hungout before school started. Heehee, well yeahhhh Friday was cool, yknow Albert making kissing faces at Susan and whatnot. Saturday wass goood fuun. Went to Goodwill with Susan got a really cute red striped tanktop and a Cherokee buttondown. All for $9! That's wasssup. And then on Sunday, woke up early and went to JetRag with Jae Un'e and got three things. (btw she bougt it for me! :)) I got a huge adidas shirt for sleeping, and then a striped tee, and a courdory jacket. Guess how much it was... $3! Yupp a dollar a piece. The $1 sale mann! I'm going again next week :) Then went to church then bused to Beverly Center, hungout with my sista and Ninacutie. That was lots of fun. Yeahh so I took $0 but at the end, I ended with a cropped tee from Planet Funk, AmericanEagle Tank, 4Earrings, and h&m canvas shoes. Yeahhh I didnt steal. But my sister didnt want me to eyeshop sooo she bought those for me. Well the cropped tee from Planet Funk was from Nina, my extremely late birthday present. :] I love youu, well yyeahhhh. I'm really happy and I think I'm oging shopping with my madre today too! Man I love this week. Everyone's being nice to me. Well yeahh I still need mo shoes and a bag for school. Yeahh Highschool starts in 2days, im not done with my hw. FML but imma work hard today. :) so yeahhh OH and im going to VENICEHIGH. stop asking pwease. and yeh, OMG andddd Janepark is a cutie.♥ There. Done.

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxx Jessica♥

Duet-NeverShoutNever♥

JESSICA KIM AND JESSICA CHOI WEEKENDS ARE AMAZING.
we need to have it more often. i officiallyy(SC) love jessicakim hahaha well she's jus sooo amaing and i can trust her with lots of things. and i love talking about boys with her cus she's not those prude asians so she understands me. us "whitewashed" asians hahah. well she's sooo scrumdilyumscious heehee :) you gotta love her. theres no reason to hate right? and we have horrible family lives but we have eachother to remind us that we're never alone and that life can be alot worse. finding the brightsides :) well jessica, i love you too much. and how i can be myself in front of you. you amaze me and your the little gossipgirl i need. and yes, next time, we'll bake :] i love dah-ling. you are so amazing even if you like a pedo hahah, i love youuuuu its crazy. although we're different, we're so much the same. she's the talking mirror i need. i can trust her compliments and critisisms becus o know that she's truthful. i love youu and i hope we have a bombdiggity time today. btw walking is my weakness point hahaha. i love how you find the beauty in things and w/ee. love booboo and we should watch some JBD next timee.
hahahhaa xoxo crazy in love with you

schedules

sooo i havent updated in a whileee and yeahh. nothing really happen yet. i went to linduh's house and then annie. then on a different day, i went to annnie's and yaknow sleptover. did some mud mask shit, and some important happened on that day i was at linduh's house. wanna know what it is? you'll flip.

JANE PARK AND JESSICA CHOI ARE FINALLY OKAY.

hahahahhaa i can imagine jiin jus look at the screen and screaming "finallly!" hahahah i love my friends. well yeah. today i think im going to work my butt off with summer reading that i decided not to do. hahhaa two more books. yay-_- i hate my life. someone please come and save me. oooooh and im hungry. i wish i was born rich. and i wish i can runaway. man. oooh and jessicakim, i sent chu a little somethinggg. i miss chu and happy belated birthday <3>

last two weeks of summer:
08/27- stay home, read and write
08/28- nick's house? jessica kim?
08/29- library to get my second book then susan's
08/30- church with susan/ come home and read.
08/31- no effing idea
09/01- venice schedule pickups then hangout w/marisa and leah
09/02- sally=melrose (:
09/03- back to school shopping? (^)
09/04- no effing idea
09/05- go to susan's for church
09/06- come back and do some hw.
09/07- no effing idea
09/08- READ MY EFFING BUTT OFF. (unless im done.)
09/09- school starts. oh yay-_-

the last few days

how amazing was palms springs?

that bamfs drew on me.

pretty fucking amazing
at first i was like ehh
cus the only people that were going were losers but w/e. soo i took a huge bag of clothes and a somewhat smaller bag to ecc that morning. i sat and sat for about 5 minutes. these little 6th grade girls were asking me to play cards with themm sooo i agreed and started playing. that's probably when andrew the fatty walked in and attempted to steal my phone. it was pretty stupid. and then andrew was all like "i want jamba juice" and i was likee BUY ME ONE but then he was like "walk with me" sooo i agreed and he bought me jamba juice cus he loves me. haha well yeah, we walked back to ecc and watch charlie and the chocolate factory. and then jason the stare boy came. and then jiin the one who doesnt answer her phone came. and then later on, we left. me jiin and jimbo. we got to ecc 3hours earlier than the rest of the people. we had some chipotle which was amazing. and then we just waited in our rooms til the rest of the afterschool came. so basically it was a boring beginning. minus the jamba juice and chipotle. soooooooo thenn the people came, we went into our rooms, we fell on our beds that came off the walls and just stayed like that for a while. i love palms springs. and thennn we went swimming i think... well anyways. lemme make this blog easier to type. palms springs was filled with:
-yummy jamba juice, yummy chipotle, swimming everyday, baking a cake that was a bit dry, bike riding at 6 am, being disappointed in jimbo, eating dinner at sandy's, having annoying 6th grade girls in our room, a huge mess in our rooms and bathroom, annoying shower shedules, jiin losing her bag, go-carts with the craziest driver alive, sock baseballs, have a hat war with andrew, jiin and her definitions of flirting, the longest talk i ever had with jiin, my love for jiin, hearing juhong sing again, this realllllly unusually nice kid, watching seven pounds and music and lyrics, pulling an all nighter, lauren and her fast modes get major breakouts, dizz biiitch steve, poker games, being so ugly everyday, andrew being so "nice" to me, the radings (spell check), the random calls from nickypoo, jus biking and then falling thanks to the craziest rider ever, finally becoming andrew friend, and lastly get random messages from sarah saying "CHANNING TATUM!<3"

ahahhaha palms springs was lots of fun. as you can see^
but chyeah, that was the last one ever. soo im pretty depressed. cus it was the LAST ONE. unless me and jiin find a way to find enough money to go there again. it was pretty fun. and i will miss it. alot.

these 6th graders;
"omg water went up my nose!" jenny
"omg water went in my nose mouth!" grace
"uhhh, im just doing my fast mode" lauren
ahahahahhahaahhahahahaahah

"i know why you cant say the n word" jenny
"why not?" jiin
"because then black people will come and kill you" jenny
friggin cutieee


the ecc fam

yeahhhh,
thanks for the memors guys <3
x x x x x,jessica

9:30pm

sorry for the profanity on the previous post.
it was all bcus of nick and my mom ahaha, so nick hahn im-s me saying that he's in ktown. now what do i do? freakout. cus he's grounded. soooo i asked my dearest mother if i can meet my devil bestfriend at 9:30pm. she agreed. yes! but then i get there...THIZZZ BIIIIITCH. ahaha so i get to jamba juice and their closing-_- an then nick tells me that he has to leave in 5minutes. sooo im like "your stupid" yaknow? so yehh it was pretty gay cus we didnt even get to talk. fml. but chyeah. LOVE YOU NICK and those 5minutes were fun...okay nat but still. i miss you already and hopefully you get un-grounded soon. love youu x x xjessica

ps, tell your dad thanks for the jamba teehee

bakerella

thizzz bitchhh
fucking amazing
and always keeps me hungry.

i wanna be like her.

anyone wanna bake wit mee?
cus i wanna make some popsicle pies and some cheesecake balls.
yuppppppp that's wassup

jae un'e//amber

so thanks to jiin,
im going to update cus im pretty bored right now. first off id like to say, jiin, nick, sarah-check your facebooks. i left a pleasant suprize for you guys heehee(; anywayss, so this week has just started and its going off good-ish. im currently at susan's for the 3rd sleepover in a row. its really fun except for that fact that susans not here. she left at like 3 or 4pm to chill with her friends at century. so yeah i stayed in this house cus i got jae un'e and amber to talk to. ooh and happy too(susan's dog) oohoooh most of all i have susan's mom. she's amazing and like my second mom. she's the mother i never had. ahahaha im a sad orphan ahaha. love. my. life. umm i went to susan's church yesterday and that was lots of fun cus after church, me and susan were talking to these oppas(justin, steve, and sol) ahaha well yeah it was really funny cus i didnt understand what they were saying. cus im a sweet angel l=unlike those corrupted people ahaha. apples. okay sooo yeah the past days consisted of fisheye pictures of susan when she's sleeping, and having arts and crafts with amber, and DDR with janice un'e. all sooo fun. soo yeah im helping amber with her hw right now. and talking to jae un'e bout venice high. so yeah this is what my life revolves around. ahaha the kim family. happy, kit? i updated ya'll

oh and today i realized that im just a sad person. cus susan's grandma is spending a couplr of days here and as we were going on the elevator, she said that i was pretty. i felt soo happy. it was pretty sad. like i haven't heard that before. pshhh.pshhpshhhhh. okay i lied. i don't hear it that much. actually, i hardly hear it. rarely. FML

xoxoxoxoxojess, btw i mish you nick, come back soon.

the weekdays

so lets recap for thursday and friday
sooooo thursday, goodgoood fun
with jiiiiiin♥ and chodeface heehee
chodeface=andrew ahahaha umm so yeah visiting ecc for like 2minutes was fun and chitchatting with jiin, OH helll-lo! we went to jamba and then talkedd. i missed talking to her :) so yeah we talked about stuff and oher stuff. then andrew came to get his haircut(which turned out cute!) and yeahh. man, jiji doesnt know how to take her chances! it frusterates me a bit. i hate chu lucky bitch. ahahaha um and no using johnny against me! ahahha johnny and down the ___ fatty! i love you jiin and i hope that we can hangout before palms springs! cus talking to you cracks me up. and yes, i know i talk alot but we had to catch up :] okays love you, lets chill soon mkay?

oooh and you too chodeface :)

friday(today) was fun too, i guess o.o
sooo i hungout with mr nicholas hahn and that was okay(: we had lunch with his mother and that was funn (nat) ahaha and then we watched movies. the ugly truth♥ heehee, and yes nick is the definition of the ugly truth ahaha then we walked all the way to melrose cus the bus wouldnt come and yeah it was fucking hot. soooo then we went to aa and uo and he got a fisheye camera, yay! ahaha well yeah and then he steals my sticker-_- ahahah but w/e you owe me film! and the next time we hangout, PICTURES pwease ahahhaa :] okay love you, lets go to venice soon

PJ'S

currently eating ho-duek, amazingly good

sooo yeah im at working on blogger, too cool ahaha i havent really done anything this summer. i've just gone to movies once in a while and shit. OMG i still didnt watch transformers like the little loser i am. i think im watching it with my mother tonight but idk. um i watched 500days of summer and that movie was cute and all but the ending was weird o.o "hi im autumn" ahaha creative but stupid ahaha i really wanna watch WHIP IT or something like that (: ellen page is a cutie so yehh. these days, ive been saying "yeh" soooo much it's crazy. JUST LIKE ARTHUR COOKIE heehee i miss him. i miss middleschool in geneeral but chyeah. um yesterday i met one of my mother's friends that live in texas and she's sooo friggin hilarious and i love her sooo soo much ahha she's like call me un'e okayy? you HAVE to call me un'e ahaha love her so much she's soo cute and funny. she looks scary but when you get to know her, she laughs like... JIIN ahhaa her laugh is very cute :] soo yeah meeting her was lots of fun and we're going to hangout again today. going to eat pab bing suu OOOH YEEEEAAHH heehee soo yeah im pretty much bored and have to use the bathroom heehee

ps going to palms springs with ecc! yay!
pss going to pee nowww
psss check out this song "She's Got You(or Me i forgot) High-Mumm-Ra"
pssss look at my last blog and watch it, it's really cute

okay OH GOOD NEWS, mother reconnected my phone sooo txt/call !(:

xoxo jessica

psssss SARAH SINGH COME OVERRRR! I MISS CHU LIKE CRAZY. AND THIS TIME, WE CAN GO TAKE CUTE ASIAN PICTURES. I MISS YOUUUUUUU love youuu

if today was your last day

cute mv <3

sarah

blogging bout thursday and friday

thursday;
sarah came over, slept over, watched old movies, cried, talked bout everyone we missed, found my yearbook, lost my scrapbook, had lots of fun, had some yummy lychee boba, tried touching some spikes, ran away from skateboards and "hey babe"s, told goodnight stories for 3hours, ate dinner that i made, and basically had the best time.

friday;
woke up at 12 20, went to the grove, got screamed at by my mom, get to grove, see weird persian men, read some food magazines, watching THE PROPOSAL, wait for nick-_-, try on shoes i cant buy, eat chipotle x2 (ANYONE BUY ME CHIPOTLE AND ILL LOVE YOU FOREVER), had a great time, "window window wall wall sweat ddrop down my balls" :), ahaha i love you sarah

those two days was soooooo fun. i miss you already. i love you sarah. and next time you make my bedtime stories. I LAAA JOO (:

ps. summer is getting boring again.
pss. going swimming today.
with my sister. SISTA BONDING TIME :D
PSSS. ANYONE NOTTTT WATCH TRANSFORMERS?!
i feel stupid for not watching it yet.
watch it with me + eat chipotle = ily foreverrrrrr<3

AAFleaMarket

This weekend was a blast!
on saturday, it was my mother's birthday. i made her a good dinner. it wasnt the best but it was still something. i made sushi and a macaroni salad, weird combination but it took 3hours to make so i was proud of myself(-: um after dinner, i rode taxi to annie's so we can go to the flea market together the next day (: it was so fun at her house, with our moments with alex the fattie, our omegle moments and etc. it was pretty amazing(: soooyeah that was fun and then the next day we went to the flea market and it was really good. (natt) soooo um

so renamed all my posts and today i made a new tanktop
out of an old shirt so im pretty much proud of myself
summer's fucking boring and it needs some excitement
and i made a wallet thingy too. out of susan's old shoulder pads
and then i go over susan's like EVERYDAY
soooo i basically have no life but w/e, i wanna make a vitaminwater wallet
but then i dont have any tape so FML.

and yeah shoutout to nick hahn, the pooooor old boy that
has a shittyass summer starting with his parents finding out that
he was talking bout shaving his puebs with his friend
ahahahhaah pooor sad nick. i lalala you and hope your summer gets better
i know that i need to make you a bracelet and blahblah but
ill make that soooon and i wanna see that thing your sending me
but fol(f our lives) you dont have any stamps. thanks bestie.

sooo anyways,
i realized that alot of my close friends are alot of things to me
like sarah :my life, my drug, my dawww-rel<3, my obaminiqua,
my quailoo forever

yeahh well im gonna go cause
nick hahn is amazing
and this site is too! omegle.com

party + july4&5th

so grad was a bitch



and then party!










O.O

that rapist! (:

BY THE WAY!


anyone going?

My Dedication to my Bestfriends

Dearest Sarah Singh:

You are my life. You complete me. This year has been the best yet because me and you got closer. I love you so much, it's honestly indescribable. You are the sister that I never had. We have so many similarities and we also have our differences. Like Mitchell Davis or saying "Nicee" or "Beast" or "Davvviiiiddd" Ahahaha. I love you soooo much. And our differences like, how you think that Conor isn't that cute and etc. But I love your honesty. You are amamamamazing! You are so pretty and gorgeousss. Honestly, hanging out with you is not always the best for me cause I feel so ugly next to youu. Ahaa, well yeah. We have like the same music taste and I love The Jonas Brother unlike those haters at school (-: You help me through my problems like with my lovelife or my friend life with *eric*. Well yeahhh. This little paragraph was for you and I just want you to know that I love you so much and I'm going to miss you alot next year. "And how do we say our goodbyes? Do we laugh or cry?" -Goodbyes-Savannah Outen. This song makes me cry. We are inseparable and we're separating. I miss you already. And our "lean back" memories. And our Maxi-Pad moments. 

I love you Sarah Singh.<3

Dearest YoungKi Lee:

I miss you. I miss you. You are the Pikachu out of all my Pokemons. You are amazing. I love you so much and I haven't seen you since GradNight which is FOREVER ago. We rarely talk anymore but I love you sooo much. YoungKi Lee: (n.) The ladies man that never really gets any ladies in the end. Jessica's bestfriend. Also known as the babyface. Ahaha, I miss you and our 7th Grade timess. Well highschool's starting. Imma apply for North Hollywood next year, I think, so be excited (-: Ily the cutest thing ever.<3

Dearest Nicholas Hahn:

You are the best guyfriend that I possibly have. You can make me smile whenever. You are the person I can't last a day without talking to. We haven't seen each other in a while, but I'm glad we still talk. You are the superman I need to keep me going. Nick, you and I laugh so much and I love that about uss. We can talk about honestly, anything. I trust you with anything and I love you. Even when I have the worst day, I'll always be here to listen to your problems and I bet you do the same for me. I can't wait til you get back from Hawaii so we can hangout. You are my summerlove and I can't wait for summer to come. Your girl problems crack me up and I don't know if I help but yeahh. Ohh, and you need to buy me Gogi! Ahaha, 

I love you Nicholas Hahn.<3

bestfriends

bestfriends
some people go out with their bestfriends,
i have and i think that it's great that
you know the person you like/love.

but you have some friends
that you just cant go out with.
ever.

i hope you understand.
i pray that you do cause we're just bestfriends
and id never want to lose what we have
which is more than anything

my dad

doesnt live with me
and doesnt have anything to do with me anymore,
so please, dont make me feel all left out when you guys
are having a convo bout your dads. cause i dont have one.

seriously dont.

umm so i have ot do my oral presentation soon and im not so excited but kind of scared ahaha maybe i should make some rainbow cupcakes again but maybe not. i realized that baking calms me down. alot. i think that my future career has baking in it. but idk. at first i was all like "oooh kim sam soon is doing it so i should" but then i found out that i actually want to do this. im very excited to know a few hints of my future.

um so eric is my bestfriend:
he is like the best and he's always there to make me laugh even if im crying. he calls me a man and i call him a lady. we are the bestest of friends and idk what ot do without him next year. ahaha him and his SCENE girls ahaha sike. im hoping that six flags is a whole lot of fun. and no, your not jumping off of it(-: but yeahh ily sosososso much and im here for you, unlike "my friend" that i keep forgting about teeeheee

i want so many things
i have a problem. i want a camera, photoprinter, polaroid film, and a grad dress from h&m ($60) and yeahh. oh andi want an ipod cause i havent had one in AGES, soo yeah pretty much that's it and ill try to come back and write next time.

ps. ill post up the cupcakes when im done making them

x x x, jessica

my lifeeee

Adam Sevani.<3

he's soo cute//mine!

ilse and susan's party

that party last night was awfully crazy,
i wish we taped it, i (laugh) my ass off,
and had this one girl (half) naked(=

hahaha half naked, helene...
it was a dare.

ummm the party was GREATTT
some things are classified but here's an idea,

TP-ing houses and bushes, blockbuster and skateboards, liam and conor, sleeping on a lawn at 5am, runnning everywhere, leah and rachel getting lost, drama, sneaky sneaks, drinks, the exorism of emily rose, helene's crazy annoyingness

well yeah
that was an amamamamamazing! haha
emily rose is a limbo freak and a weird speakerr((:
umm ohh and
CONOR IS MY LIFEEEEE♥

SOOOO CUTE,
everybody loves conor but too bad i married him!
tahahahaha, okays ill try to post pictures soon

ps. i got magic stright and a hair cut,
NO MO DEAD HAIRRRRR(:

suicide

so today i read j's blog and she mentioned
how she wouldnt care if anyone commited suicide
and that she wouldn't care.

well, actually if that happened to me,
i'd cry even if it's someone i just pass by everyday to say hi to
everyone's life has a value,
and thinking that "ooh i wish he/she was dead" is
just a moment. seriously, you dont know what you got til it's gone
i wish you'd understand that, j
it's a lesson that should be learned
suicide is a scary term
i can't say i never thought about it
but i pray for forgiveness every time
life may seem hard,
but you just have to stay strong and keep on going
life is a gift, and many people dont know that.
the stress in life can bring you down
"but just get back up when it knocks you down"

dear s,
you'll always be mybestfriend.♥

ps. i went to a flea market with susan and got a new polaroid!
yay yehhhh-yyy! haha, and i got a necklake for dear madre heehee

pss. nick! you have to go there with me!

the beach trip

((((((((ASIANSSSS))))))))


soooooo MUCH funnn!
hudson and david both killed me in the waves
umm and peter's perfect back cause of me teehee
and duncan's PALE boddddd
hahahah and he's sooooo tan (((((((:
um the food was okay and the waes and water was amazing
except im ugly in pictures because im so tan and my hair's all frizzy and shizzz(:
sooo sad sarah couldnt goooo,
hmmm yeah it was funnnn ohh and
sarahh, i love you dont be sorry. it's my fault<3
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hahah i lalalallalalalalala youuu!
tooooo daaaa luuuuu, jessica

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHXWT8Scwmo

that's so raven:separation anixety

watch it sooo funny!

HAHAHAHAHAHA! (((:

walk together- hhahahaha

annnie nigg.<3

i had so much fun yesterday
what would i have done yesterday?
probably die of boredom hahah but you
called me up and we went to the grove heehee

sooo much funnn:
good movie;ghosts of girlfriends pasts
good food;the cheeseacke factory (and that one hot gay guy)
good men; BOBBY LEE! hahahah he got so creeped out when me and annie started following him haha btw, yes the real bobbylee (:

yeah yesterday was fun
we would have pictures but the apple store closed.

your my cuppycaaake

today, i went on kit's blog and
noticed that she followed only one blog
so i started reading it and it is amazing
it's like baking baking and cupcakees!

so i tested one outt!
my rainbow cuppycakes!
this is the link for the og recipe and shizz.
you have to scroll down a bit
http://iheartcuppycakes.com/

well yeahh
here's the story of my adventure
after mixing the baking mix(yes i didnt start from scratch)
place them in cups by the order of colors you'd like



and then.
2omins in an 350degrees oven

then frost them babies!




(i love that baking cup color afterwords!)


ain't it a gorge?(:

i love the results
hahahaah every cupcake came out unique teehee
i hope i can make more cupcakes like these
hahaha, teeeeeheeeee

x x x, Jessica

JASONMRAZ

"mr.curious when i need some inspiration"-mr.curiousity-jason mraz

i love jason jason jason mraz

i love the secret handshake

i love lmfao and shwayze

i love nevershoutnever and owlcity

i love all time low cause their cute♥

i love boy like girls cause there mellow

i love the cobra starship and forever the sickest kids
cause the drummer is my husband

they are all great singers/bands.
they all amaze me with their music
their all cute in their own way

please support all of them♥
ps.im possibly leaving some people behind but i forget

pss. YOU make me fcking sick to my stomache.
you disgust me at how much you can say and not mean later.
you piss me off everytime i think of what you said
"i never said we're bestfriends" uhh. okay i thought we were
this was a while back but i get reminded everyday.

we are not bestfriends?
sure fine. i guess so. sucks for you. you don't have any "best"s anymore.

bbycks!

i going crazy for it.
hahhahaha hopefully i get what i want (-:

i love you kit
hahaha that smiley reminded me
the kit face (:

okayysss so this weekend i didnt do shit cause
well on saturday i had like no energy.
haha go figure and i was exhausted from the isearch
teeeeeeeheeeeee well yeah, my weekend
was the resting one heeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee

ps. i love bbycks!
hopefully i can get some shit

21 hours

of no food.
it's like... the I-Search.
feels like hell but somehow relieved at the end to be snacking on a big bowl of rice (like the asian i am) teehee. it wasn't just out of nowhere that i decided not to eat. I was mad at my mom and somehow didnt want to eat anything that was hers. which was nothing in my house. so i starved. waking up everyhour during the night; i guess this is how anorexic people felt

im not anorexic
i eat wayyyyyyyyy more than you probably do
unless your jiin, jkwon or annniekins

hahaha yeah my 21 hours of death
but the hour right after it, feels like heaven

ps, dont try this,
you get a big stomache(?) because your stomach is shrucken

happybirthday love<3

jennice,
happy birthday stickkk<3

you are the bestttt,
ahaha i knew you since like foreverr
and im happy to have you as a friend for that long
we havent hung out in forever and i hope we do soon
i loveeee you and happy 14th birthday
ps, last long with edward

ilse,
happy birthday shoelace launcher<3
i lovee you oh-so-much!
you are like veryyyyyy calm ALL the time
but we still have our momentsss
GILLY! and our handshake
hahahaah no one can beat that!(:
well yeah happybirthday and ill get your present soon
ps, your hair is like a blonde mermaid's

tumor

my mom has a small tumor in her body.
she has to have surgery tomorrow.
fuck my life.

wishlist

things i want but cant have at the moment;

white vneck from aa

figure skater dress from aa

shiny duffle bag from aa

mint vneck from aa

bat wing;lavender from aa

grey cardigan from aa

tokidoki earrings

gladiators from uo

marc jacobs earrings from nordstrom

dolce vita gladiators from nordstrom

cucumber marc jacobs perfume from nordstrom

zebra lighting necklace from jawbreaking.jewelry.com

stache necklace from jawkbreaking.jewelry.com

2legit 2 quit necklace from jawbreaking.jewelry.com

jawbreaking necklace from jawbreaking.jewelry.com

leaf necklace from uo or forever21 i forget

cute shirt from forever21

camera shirt from forever21

ruffle shirt from forever21

striped sweater from aa

gladiators from forever21

neon flats from forever21

striped vneck from aa

sanrio.com

barbells from hot topic

cat camera from uo

from uo

nike from uo

goodnite pillow from uo

fake aa jacket from uo

typewriter from uo

coiled serpent ring from uo

kimchi pocket sweater from uo

vintage headband from uo

gladiators from uo

vans from uo; 20$$

sanrio.com; 60$